The Road to 40 Day 101/365: Reflection and Travel Monday

I would never have thought day 100 would be an uneventful one, but here we are.

This whole blog has not been planned in any way, and was meant to be an online journal of how I spent the last year of my 30’s. As such, I didn’t plot what was going to happen on what day.

We were on our way back to SG, but it was a regular work day for Che. She went to the office late so she can spend the morning with us. I cooked tocino for breakfast, and Che prepared to get to work.

The night before, a friend blew up on the group chat, and I joked with Che that he had invisible enemies again. His rants were unprompted, and he was practically the only one who was sending messages. He left the GC and is not replying to my messages.

Reflecting on this experience, I feel a bit frustrated because I don’t understand what he’s going through. This is a guy I talk to more than I talk to my own brother.

My parents both worked while we were growing up, with my and my siblings moving in our own circles. Since high school, I’ve been spending a lot more time with friends than family.

It’s one of the reasons why I’m not too worried about Vino being an only child. At some point in life, he will be running in his own circles, with or without siblings. Right now, my sister is in the PH, I’m in SG, while my brother is in AU. We rarely spend time with each other, really.

Sure, it’s nice that they’re just there when needed, but I feel like Vino will be ok if he gets to be with lifelong friends like the ones Che and I found.

However, in moments like these when I don’t understand what’s going on with them, I begin to question where I am in their lives. Do they value me the same way that I do them?

I guess I’m missing out on their lives a lot because of the distance, and that’s fair.

However, not getting a chance to understand where his frustrations are coming from and just getting radio silence is disheartening. What I thought to be a very deep friendship of over 20-something years is apparently still shallow.

“In vino veritas” is our favorite Latin quote, which is also where Vino’s name came from. “In wine, there is truth,” and as a Philosophy major, I am in constant pursuit of truth. Hence, I gave the name Vino to my son – my truth, that which I have pursued all my life. Also, wine grows better with age, so if he lives up to his name, he’ll be an amazing person.

Alcohol bound me with a lot of people, including my closest friends and family. I love drinking for company, but if I’m going to be reduced to a drinking buddy and not even someone people I value could talk to for things they are going through, then I’d rather stop driniking.

Anyway, Vino and I went to the airport rather early, just to get ready for the potential craziness of the lines. It was relatively smooth. There was a bit of a line to get our boarding pass, immigration was a bit short as well.

We ordered a burger and a hotdog sandwich for late lunch and waited for our boarding time. We later learned that our flight time became our boarding time, and we were going to be a bit late.

In the plane, Vino played on his tablet, but ate quite a bit of the plane food again. He was watching Thunderbolts on the plane’s entertainment system and did not sleep a wink.

Upon landing, he told me that he was hungry, and he wanted to eat at home. As requested, I ordered Hawaiian pizza, his favorite. I guess he is a growing boy, as he almost finished the box of pizza by himself.

We took a bath and got ready for bed. He had questions while watching Thunderbolts, and I told him he should continue watching the Infinity Saga so that he understands the references.

So we went on to continue watching the first Avengers movie. My goal is to get to Endgame the proper way.

We checked in with Che to call it a night. She went out with friends and lost track of time.

I’m always happy to see her spend time with other people, but I just got a bit worried because she wasn’t checking in with us. Being that she’s alone and she had a bad episode of her gastric issues before we came, I was anxious to know if she’s ok.

Knowing she had a good night, Vino and I went on to finish our movie and slept a bit late again. I bargained with him that he should wake up early for school, so let’s see if he can do it.

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